Today's Chant

Implantation bleeding!
Implantation bleeding!
Please be implantation bleeding!

(Repeat)

Jan. 29th: Implantation bleeding again?? Hm...

Roommates (er....wombmates?)

I understand that wishing never made it so. But...

Please be pregnant.
Please be pregnant.
Please be pregnant!

Egg, meet Sperm.
Sperm, meet Egg.
That's right, get cozy.
We intend for you to be roommates.


143.6 (wth is happening to me??!)

Patience

I'm still not pregnant, and I really want to be. I believe in God's timing, as well as my body's own ability to know when all is in order to best host a baby. But sheesh, it's hard to wait!

Last month's disappointment was really poignant. I hope this month's isn't. I just 'had a feeling.' I should've remembered that my intuition sucks.

A sweet thing to remember: Last month, as I was laying in bed feeling sad and crampy, Aubrey came over with a treat. In this circumstance, we should deem it "Better Than Baby" cake. :) I ate it for breakfast. It cheered me up substantially. I have fantastic friends.

I also have two amazing children. If I could never have more, I'd be happy and content with only them. It's just that I had felt (and feel) there was at least one more waiting... Was that my faulty intuition? I guess time will tell.

Come quick, baby. Mommy's ready for ya.



Update/PS(Later that night): Punto. Bleh. Oh well. I expected as much. I don't feel sad, surprisingly. I'm grateful for my fully functioning, predicable body. Things will happen when they happen. Until then, I'm going to take a deep breath and try to just calmly wait.